Little Puck - Parasited Full
The parasite diminished not because he somehow outran it but because he stopped feeding it with the kinds of choices that made it thrive. In time the whisper thinned into a background noise—occasionally sharp, occasionally persuasive, but no longer the organ controlling his limbs. He found delight sinking back into small things he had not valued while the parasite commanded his appetites: the honest satisfaction of a pigeon caught and fed, the clean warmth of a pie eaten sitting on a doorstep, the uncomplicated joy of slipping a coin into a child's palm without strings attached.
The parasite was not a monster with fangs. It was a patient connoisseur of circumstance. It preferred to live off consent. It supplied him with details—names to call at the right hour, coins that jingled in pockets when he walked past, doors that conveniently forgot their locks. It rewarded him for curiosity and punished him for shame. When he tried to stop it, to press his palm against his temple and scrape the whisper away, it rose in him like bile, hot and bitter: headaches, nausea, a frantic aching for scraps that were no longer mere food but a symbol. To refuse the parasite was to admit he had been hollowed out; to accept it was to feel full. little puck parasited full
Still, it never left entirely. In the dark hours, when cold or hunger or fear pressed heavy, the voice remembered ways to make him powerful, efficient, dangerous. It was a part wound into his marrow, a cunning that had once kept him from starving. He learned to treat it as someone he must bargain with carefully—allowing it small, harmless tastes so it would not lash out, refusing its demands for leverage and spectacle. The parasite diminished not because he somehow outran
The fullness changed what he saw. Where he had once noticed the crook of an old man's hand, the parasite fed his gaze on opportunities: an unlocked purse, a quarrel that could be stoked, a child left to cross alone. He learned the economy of favors—how a tiny theft could be exchanged for a half-truth that opened a door. He became efficient at survival, at exploitation. But efficiency has a shadow: calculation cools kindness. His laughter thinned into calculation; his pranks became transactions; his coal-eyed joy turned to a ledger kept in a pocket with the pigeons. The parasite was not a monster with fangs
Sometimes, in the thin hours before dawn, he would wander the riverbank and watch the water peel light from the city. He would remember a different hunger then—clean, unaccompanied by the parasite's whisper—an appetite that was uncomfortable but honest. Those memories felt unreal, like a dream the parasite preferred he forget. Once, a child he had known from childhood scrambled across the quay to ask for a coin. Little Puck reached into his pocket and produced one, then watched as the child left smiling. The parasite, pleased, fed. Little Puck felt momentarily complete, as if generosity could soothe the hollowness.
Cracks widened in the parasite's hold. Acts of unpurchased kindness accumulated like pebbles in a shoe—irritating, insistent. Little Puck found himself waking before the whisper, doing small things out of a habit that had always preceded the voice's lessons. He cleaned a pigeon coop for no reason. He left a pie on the windowsill of the baker who had stayed awake nights making bread for the poor. He told a lie to a noble to spare an old woman a headline. These were small violences against the parasite, choices that undercut its logic.
